FINAL REFLECTION

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Throughout the 2019-2020 school year I've come to realize that change is okay. In all honesty I thought my senior year would fly by, no issues, just fun but now that it’s coming to a close it seemed like this year has been longer than it should. With all the big changes happening I’m still learning that all of this happened for a reason and something big will come out of it in the end. In the beginning of the year, I was still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and where I wanted to be and what was most beneficial to me. I was so unprepared for the real world in the beginning of the year, still depending on people to figure out what I want to do with my life instead of figuring it out for myself.

 I had to learn how to be independent and stop worrying about my friends and family to figure out what’s going to happen to me in the next couple years. There have been a lot of changes that have happened in these last couple months. The biggest change has been trying to adjust to the pandemic lifestyle, come to terms with the fact that the big changes have become my new normal. Taking online classes the final four months of my high school year, falling asleep and 5 am every morning, losing family members have become as normal as getting dressed every day or watching your favorite tv show every day. But all changes are good even the ones that are meant to be bad. Changes help you come accustomed to all different types of lifestyles and normals that can happen over your lifetime. Learning and accepting the fact that changes just help you grow is a good thing helps make these changes easier to get used to, if things stay the same all the time there won’t be room for growth and improvement. 

During this year one of the biggest mistakes I’ve made is not trying sooner to better myself in school, in my social life, my family life and just trying to become a better person. There are many things I regret doing, regret speaking about, regret not speaking about etc. I put loads of pressure on myself to make things go back to normal even if it wasn’t working. Because of this mistake I’ve learned how to have a more mature mindset, and focusing on new things that make me happy, new routines and new things that I can do that makes me feel better about myself as a person. Without these changes I feel I wouldn’t have the opportunity to find things that make me happy and be better about myself. 

While doing this capstone project I was able to expose myself to other people and businesses. I’ve also been exposed to business routines, environments, languages and behaviors. While working at the office at Junior Achievement I had to work on speaking and keeping a conversation with people. I pushed myself outside my comfort zone by speaking out loud when and if I had ideas, public speaking when I was invited to meetings and had to represent Junior Achievement at programs. I feel this project helped me prove to myself that I can bring myself out of my comfort zone and be able to speak out loud and not stay in my own little bubble. I also made sure to communicate with more people, ask for help if I had no responsibilities and made sure I was able to be respectful at all times being watched or not.